Sometimes I just wonder, when someone writes...'I am open-minded' or 'I am cheerful and bubbly' whether that someones really is? I wonder if this person gets angry or be sad or maybe have a secret, hidden from the eyes of men. For certain, if a bubbly person gets angry, then the bubliness gets cancelled out, and what he/she thought he/she is, was just a mere pretence. So why the pretence? Why the fear of being shunned? Why not be yourself?
The answer my friend...is never with me. For I am myself someone who does not know who I am inside. Or why I am actually doing what I am doing. I surprise myself sometimes. So to make sure that my investigations on myself is correct, I am going to list down my notes here. And maybe just maybe, that you may make the conclusion yourself on me. But don't tell me! you may just spoil the surprise... who knows I may actually be spiderman or superman or maybe catwoman! The malay muslim kindlah!!!
Investigation Notes: Case 14527236 (In search of Bob)
-I am actually a loner.
-I am actually a conversationist.
-I contradict myself sometimes.
-I love my mom, my mom and my mom.
-I love my brothers.
-I love my nieces and nephews...when they dun use me as a horsey!
-I love cats and dogs, yes dogs. I just don't touch them.
-I love to ride on buses.
-I need my 'me' time usually the end of the week.
-I love my friends.
-A friend is someone who I know.
-A relative is someone I hope not to know.
-I love my mosque.
-I may be bisexual or even trisexual. Hmm.. I may go quad!
-I may be an animal. (inside)
-I may be an angel.
-I love the sky.
-My ideal date would be, to sit and have a cup of coffee, underwater!
-And maybe just maybe, I did not start this list proper, because I would give all this up, for my God.
May Allah forgive me for things I know and do not know.
